I am but a stranger tom myself. I never knew what’s the real meaning of my life or the purpose why I am living in this perfect world.
I’m always asking “lord, why am I still living in this world if all I am experiencing are problems and sorrows?” but even though I’m saying all those words, it doesn’t matter that I hate Jesus. I know all of these are just trials that god send me for me to face it. And I believe that the lord has his own plans for me.
It all started when our graduation day was getting nearer and nearer. All of us are afraid about our grades and some of us including me were getting busy for some entrance examinations for secondary year.
I took the examinations in CNU, CCNSHS, and UP. But among the three I really wanted to pass in CCNSHS since the place is quite beautiful and for some reasons I don’t need to explain anymore.
Sad to say I didn’t pass the entrance examination. But as far as I believe; what I chose, what I really want, what I feel determines who really I am. I do have aspiration to study in a school where I am comfortable. But in the end, I accept my own failure. Then again I’m hoping to pass in UP, since I don’t want to study in CNU.
It was a sunny morning, we were practicing for our commencement exercise, when someone approached Ernestine of I- Villamor who is beside me and said “you and your other classmate who’s last name is Cortes passed the entrance examination in UP”. I was shocked on what I’ve heard; I can’t explain what I feel.
During the vacation I’ m thinking about my life when I enter UP. Will it be so difficult for me, will I have strict teachers, and will I have friends that will be always with me even at the lowest point of my life or everything?
But when I enter here in UP its really different compared to my elementary life. My classmates are different because they’re so good to me and I can say that they really are my friends.
It’s quite a short time but we re already in the 4th quarter. I’m reminiscing the time since I came and studied here in UP. I can still recall the sweat and tears the Freshies sacrificed just to prove our worth especially during the intramurals. I can also recall the hardships and trials I passed. Everything of it made me discover my life in this world.
Because of my family and my friends here in UP especially Jeziel, I started being no one and I want to continue it until I reach my goal in life. I’m asking God for guidance because I believe that I can succeed through his help.
Yes, I am but a stranger not to my self anymore but to the future struggles that I will be facing soon (if I’m still alive). Because of UP I will be able to look forward and face the future with confidence and without fears because I really believe that I finally discovered what God has set for me.
